I feel more depressed today than I have in maybe a year.
I went to bed early last night, thinking I'd get up early today. I woke up at 1pm. All I can think about is how my life is just an endless cycle of anxiety. I get up in the morning, worry about getting everything done on time so I can go to bed early, then lay in bed and worry about going to sleep on time so I can get up early, and then repeat.
That is, if I'm not busy being in denial by staying up late and playing video games to escape. Which is what I do, most of the time.
When I was 18 I was buff, I did parkour, martial arts, and I did nothing but work and be productive. I had plans to get a specific job making $60,000 a year and doing what I love. Then I became an alcoholic, got fat & lethargic, and got arrested and put into probation. I'm nothing like what I planned to be.
That is, if I'm not busy being in denial by staying up late and playing video games to escape. Which is what I do, most of the time.
When I was 18 I was buff, I did parkour, martial arts, and I did nothing but work and be productive. I had plans to get a specific job making $60,000 a year and doing what I love. Then I became an alcoholic, got fat & lethargic, and got arrested and put into probation. I'm nothing like what I planned to be.
26-30, M
