Why am I so weird

I’m so picky about my food that I can’t enjoy it, ever. I’ve been making homemade sandwiches with spinach, tomato, pickles and cheese, and the whole time I eat it, I can’t think of anything except how gross the texture of the tomatoes is and how soggy the spinach is. I also think about how cheese is made and how gross that process is. If I made any changes to the sandwiches, I would find things wrong with that, too.

I know it sounds like a small issue but I actually suffer from it. It’s every day, every meal. I’m just constantly disgusted by my food. I want it to stop.