When can I end it?

I've had depression since I was 16. Im 28 now. I was diagnosed at 21 with schizoid personality disorder and was on meds for a while. Thing is...Im tired. The only thing that keeps me alive is taking care of my mother and provide for her. If she wasnt here I'd have ended it long ago. I've been thinking about it and Im getting more and more tired and fed up and I just feel quite empty.

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Harlow · 31-35, F

All you can really do is focus on now. Take it one day at a time. Figure out other things to live for. Even though it’s hard it’s has to be done. You can only live your life and no one can do it for you. Life has so much in it that you haven’t seen. It’s unpredictable. Don’t let depression blind you from seeing your bright future. Have you gone to talk to a counselor or anything? Do you think that would help?

Alic3ack · 31-35, F

@Harlow I have been on professional help and meds but I dont think they got it quite right.

Harlow · 31-35, F

@Alic3ack then it might be a matter of finding the right person to talk to & right meds. It’s worth it. You are worth more than you know. And I hope you realize that one day 💚

Harlow · 31-35, F

@Alic3ack