My psychosis lasted for two months last year? I feel like all my serotonin is gone and i can feel the mystical ecstasy worlds my alter mind created.

not drug induce sorry. Weed can't recreate this.

good shit can

@Churcy: naw, I'm sorry but I was a active smoker back in my late teens and early twenties. ANd what I have felt in my psychosis was 100x times better than any drug I have tried.

MENTAL ILLNESS IS NOT FUN...

@Churcy: It's not fun experience at fist because you get all kinds of bizzare delusions, but someone that is in a psychotic state can feel anything from paranoia to ecstasy, While weed has given me some beautiful delusions and hallucinations what I felt in 2014 and 2015 was fucking amazing.

Actually, the high that comes from being in psychosis can sometimes be unbelievably blissful and enjoyable. I'd know, because I've been there many times myself and it can actually make living with everyday highs and lows pretty dissatisfying.

@SolitaryFriend: I know man and people can seem to grasp this, I'm still waiting for my next psychotic episode and it's almost been a year since I had my last one, I just crave it so bad having all this delusions in my head, and this atmospheric worlds my mind created.

@PsychoMantis: It can be a slippery slope. I don't want to keep experiencing it because it leaves too much damage in it's wake. I don't want to have to keep picking up the pieces once it's over and I don't feel it's worth what meaningful experiences do come out of it. If you can avoid hospital and keep yourself safe, then by all means, if you want to explore it you're entitled to do so.

@SolitaryFriend: I know what you mean about the hospital and picking up the pieces. I just haven't felt a more pleasant bliss in my life time, like not even the gym, concerts, sex can recreate what I have felt. What was your psychosis like what trigger it? My social worker tells me why do I miss this destructive scary freaky worlds, and I told him it heightens my senses and perceptions.