@SolitaryFriend: I know man and people can seem to grasp this, I'm still waiting for my next psychotic episode and it's almost been a year since I had my last one, I just crave it so bad having all this delusions in my head, and this atmospheric worlds my mind created.

@PsychoMantis: It can be a slippery slope. I don't want to keep experiencing it because it leaves too much damage in it's wake. I don't want to have to keep picking up the pieces once it's over and I don't feel it's worth what meaningful experiences do come out of it. If you can avoid hospital and keep yourself safe, then by all means, if you want to explore it you're entitled to do so.

@SolitaryFriend: I know what you mean about the hospital and picking up the pieces. I just haven't felt a more pleasant bliss in my life time, like not even the gym, concerts, sex can recreate what I have felt. What was your psychosis like what trigger it? My social worker tells me why do I miss this destructive scary freaky worlds, and I told him it heightens my senses and perceptions.