Coping mechanisms for hopelessness and panic and anxiety attacks

So I was on an antidepressant, Long story short I'm on an anti seizure and not allowed to take my antidepressant anymore (it did not cause the seizure, but like I said, long story).

My hopelessness and general fatigue is way up, and I have been having more panic and anxiety attacks (I'm diagnosed with ptsd, depression, generalized anxiety and am pending a diagnosis of panic disorder).
I can't really try any new medication while I'm in this brain tumor induced limbo and my coping mechanisms are not always helping the way they used to.
I need to be effective and proactive, but I'm always exhausted and these meds make me feel like a zombie, whenever I don't feel terrified or hopeless.

I just...don't know what to do. I want to be a mom again, not just a vague emotionless warden.

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TwiddlerofThumbs · F

That sounds so hopeless and awful. I wish we could fix this for you. 🤗 - I’m sure you’ve talked to your doctors. Is there anything at all that makes you smile? Brings a little light into your life?

JustMags · 26-30

@TwiddlerofThumbs my daughter. She is why I was trying to get better in the first place. But some days I'm just too tired to function. I'll sleep in late and my husband will be at work and she just waits patiently and plays in her room and goes with the flow, she hugs me when I'm not feeling good. But she's so small I can't hinge all my happiness on her, she isn't responsible for how I feel, hence me trying to cope in other ways.