In your personal life, what causes you the most trauma?

What causes you the most trauma or fear or uncertainty or despair in your personal life?

I'm looking for real answer, not jokes.

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Anonymartyr · M

Going to events where most people are with family. I never had one and feel extra lonely being singled out and isolated in the crowd.

SteinbockundLoewe · 31-35, M

@Anonymartyr If you don't mind my asking, why haven't you had a family? What do you attribute the loneliness to?

Anonymartyr · M

I was a bastard child. My father was threatened away and my mother was cast out of the family. I was raised, sent to school but also verbally, psychologically, physically and sexually abused by them since I was "less than human".
Since then the world has been just as bad to anyone as damaged as myself. I often got used by people until I just gave up.

SteinbockundLoewe · 31-35, M

@Anonymartyr Your father was threatened away? You were raised by "them?" You mean a different father who wasn't your own?
I'm sorry to hear that your life hasn't gone well.

Anonymartyr · M

@SteinbockundLoewe I was raised by my maternal grandparents who abused me various ways and allowed my aunt and my cousin to abuse me as well.

SteinbockundLoewe · 31-35, M

@Anonymartyr I'm sorry that all this pain and abuse occurred.

How you ever received or are you receiving any type of professional therapy?

Anonymartyr · M

Thats all just a drug pushing scam. Psychology is bogus. I went to several professionals who could only recite textbooks verbatum, unaware that I studied that garbage long enough to choose to throw it away. Only I can help me because nobody else really cares. They only pretend to care.
My relatives crippled me physically and now nobody will even consider dating me because of my hunched back. The western world thrives on adding suffering to the poor, the homeless and the broken.

SteinbockundLoewe · 31-35, M

@Anonymartyr Have you ever considered writing a book or a screenplay about your life? Maybe you could win in the end after all. Your story sounds very deep and real and extremely sad. It could be the subject of a best-selling book or film. Maybe you could go on a book tour. Maybe your life could change for the better when you have a platform to tell your story. Just food for thought.

MatthewTheHamster · 31-35, M

Bullies, from school to work....It create anxiety.

SteinbockundLoewe · 31-35, M

@Anonymartyr Would writing or keeping a journal help you? Would going on YouTube and talking about your experiences help you?

Anonymartyr · M

@SteinbockundLoewe I have been interviewed by authors, socialwork students and newspapers.But thst was about poverty and homelessness.
I am unable to sit upright to type as I have severe spinal damage. I can barely afford rent, let alone a writer. Im still waiting on the University here as they requested an interview as well.
Lots of people make a good living off of me but nobody is helping me except me.

SteinbockundLoewe · 31-35, M

@Anonymartyr I think you have the saddest story of anyone I've seen on this website.
What is your wish in life?

Anonymartyr · M

@SteinbockundLoewe I stopped wishing a long time ago. I DO now. I got so tired of people just sitting around saying,"somebody should do something about this". Just to get shelter, I had to fight the downtown businesses, the homeless shelters and city hall. Nobody else does anything except exploit my circumstances.
For all my fragile bones I have an unbreakable spirit. But I also learned how fake people are when the say they care. If someone really cares about the problem, they should show it by taking action. Otherwise they are just pretending to care.

SteinbockundLoewe · 31-35, M

@Anonymartyr Your city tried to shut down your home?
What action can people take to help you?
Would you ever start a gofundme page?

Anonymartyr · M

My city tried to outlaw the homeless from legaly panhandling for survival. That is to say those who panhandle according to the Safe Streets Act parameters.
I helped the panners, buskers and scrap metal collectors to unionize themselves for protection: Wiki Industrial Workers of the World, Windsor Ontario. Our union under them is called S.L.O.W., Street Laborers of Windsor. Myself and 3 other union members of the IWW set the constitution of S.L.O.W. and legalize ourselves.

Anonymartyr · M

@Anonymartyr I need to get offline. I need to go panning for food in a few hours in spite of the rain and my back pain. Rent and utilities takes all my disability benefits but at least I have a roof and my cat.
I would be happy to talk some more tomorrow.

SteinbockundLoewe · 31-35, M

@Anonymartyr Good luck. Do you believe in prayer?
And is that a mustache or a goatee?

Anonymartyr · M

@SteinbockundLoewe I belirve in prayer but I also know that things come according to God's timing and that the world is under close ecamination in preparation for the judgement.
The picture is a bit dated- about 6 years ago, just before I was diagnosed with Osteoporosis.
That is a goatee.