Dont put others at risk. The last thing you will see are 3 seconds of your brain on the pavement looking like hamburger helper. Ur a pretty girl. I feel like you and I are the same. You need to get some help. I take medication for depression and obsession.. to stop cutting my face. I havent had any recent attacks lately. But I do make myself miserable. And you shouldnt do that to yourself. You deserve better. You can change if you want to. Try a new hairstyle. Color it. Straighten it. Do your eyebrows. Add some eyeliner. Learn how to play with your looks if your feeling insecure. Lose a little weight by having a healthier lifestyle drinking nothing but water with apple cider vinagar. Just dont end your life in the moment of madness. It's not fair to the ones who really do care about you.