Those who do not have these health problems I'd call god, lucky folks. In detail they won't have a caring heart to give a dang. To be as hurt as I am on my 60 the birthday today is I'm texting to emptyness here. This site what I'll consider people froze in 100 years of deep ice Berg's. Not possible
For guy or gal here to even raise a eye brow for 1 second.
I'm 60 and here at home I sit not 1 happy birthday from 40 yr friends, no calls, no nothing as if I'm in prison
Plus invisible.
Yes I'm aware my hurt like a dumb tantrum that mom didn't buy a CD or shirt gift and we all throw birthday cards away weeks later. My depression is I need my assistance beat for being God dam here on this page. Oh sad shit.

Bad & negative are on the brink of happening as usual. Rapid heartbeat, always sweat8ng. Apathy. Loneliness. Wish you could feel confident but no one truly cares.

I use words like 'dark abyss'

There is nothing that can be said to help anyone understand it. You have to experience it to truly understand.

It’s like having a constantly nagging partner with you.

Someone who doesn’t trust you. Someone who questions your every move. “Are you sure about that?” “Everyone saw that, they are all laughing at you.”

Then, when you’re beaten down enough... they won’t shut up about how worthless you are. Constantly talking.

Nothing I say will help them understand cause they don't actually care.