That's what I'm doing now too. I've alwAys floated in and out of fitness, but I've realised I want to make a career out of getting where they want to be. First I need to get there myself.
@Ireway it will get easier trust me man. I’ve been thru it. Maybe not exactly ur scenario and idk how difficult it is for you. But you can do it. Have high hope. Doesn’t matter if you failed in past. Failure is part of life.
You are stronger than a man who has excelled all his tests but gives up upon one failure, if you have failed all ur tests but never give up.