I’m feeling so defeated with my blood sugar..stupid gestational diabetes (and yeah I get diagnosed super early due to history in past pregnancies)

All my meal blood sugars are perfect it’s just my morning blood sugar that’s not good.. I’m on a strict diet which is already hard having had a past with eating disorder and then checking 4x a day on top of that.. every “high” (only my morning sugar) makes me hate myself because it can harm baby but I’m trying everything.. I used to workout twice a day but I’ve kicked it up to 4-5 times a day to try and help but nothing seems to work 😞 my fingers are so bruised they hurt to touch anything..

Anyway I just needed to vent because I’ve been crying about it all morning lol