I’m avoiding seeing my new neurologist

I had quite a bad experience with my last one. Older male, arrogant. Women’s pain is often dismissed. So I’ve got someone new a female and a newish grad, I said to my gp that was fine because her training is fresh and it can be good. My presentation is atypical. I’ve been to so many specialists neurosurgeons, rheumatologists, the list goes on. I know roughly what the next steps could be. I’ve got nerve damage in my face after having the shingles a few years ago. I just don’t like getting my hopes up and I don’t like being made to feel like a drug seeker. The surgical option was too risky. I think there are some injections that can be tried. Tomorrow I will call and make an appointment.