Is it normal for someone to love their illness and not want to be treated?

I loved the bad habits that led to my illnesses (diabetes, inflammation, hypertension, obesity, retinopathy).

I liked sugar, caffeine, fat, salt, being sedentary, etc.

I have to cut all that out of my life now, and exercise. I do not want to.

So far, all I have managed to do is quit drinking soda (fake sugar soda sucks) and stop adding real sugar to coffee and tea (I like sucralose, instead). Sugar alcohols are OK. I stopped drinking (regular) alcohol but that was easy because I seldom drank. I started taking daily walks.

But I still drink coffee, and eat fat, salty foods (I do not add any salt, though).