Overstimulated mom

I walked almost everywhere today, I got some bad news about having psoriasis on my scalp and I lost hair. I wanted to cry but I know it’s because iv been more stressed and financially unstable . Plus iv been having health issues like a wart on my heel that’s making it hard to walk.. I can’t even afford the medicine to keep up with my health because my insurance doesn’t cover shit.. My son doesn’t stay still and is always touching and putting everything in his mouth and it’s all too much to give him attention and pay attention to my health while being so exhausted ,not having a break or any help . Then having to maintain a safe clean environment . I been depressed eating junk food and now I have to go full vegan to help with my breakouts or I will kill over. I’m so scared because I lack so much I don’t have anything but luckily taxes will be coming soon godwilligly while I’m in school. I just pray god watches over me and May any I’llnesses leave my body because I can’t afford to die or have anyone watch my son and I don’t wanna live off ssi . I’m so depressed I don’t have time for myself to even take care of myself. I love my son but I wish I made better decisions. I’m in such a horrible predicament especially with inflation and having no help thinking his dad would help I’m so dumb I hate my brain I hate everything about me

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StraightLacedLADY · 41-45, F

WOAH Nelly...

Take a breathe honey.... then take another one... and another one... lets deal with 1 thing at a time. 1 thing you can control....
What can you actually control in a whirlwind like that?

Helfreclb · 26-30, F

@StraightLacedLADY am I doing too much iv been told this .. behind anxiety .. I hate my brain that’s doing so much at once.

StraightLacedLADY · 41-45, F

@Helfreclb Yeah, that's so obvious. So have you sat down for 5 minutes, set an alarm on your cell phone and just sit down and focus on 1 thing. Something that makes you kinda smile... and just think about that for 5 minutes. You can do that right?

Helfreclb · 26-30, F

@StraightLacedLADY I will try lol sometimes I feel like I need to be medicated somehow . It’s just everything all at once but I do need to take time to chill out and focus on one thing at a time. I think I have some type of mental problem but I was diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder and in school I supposedly had adhd idk

StraightLacedLADY · 41-45, F

@Helfreclb A tool to help you get through this time, would be ADHD medication. If you have Medicaid you don't have to pay for the doctor appointment or the medication. That will help your thoughts from racing so you can focus.
Also, maybe mention or ask around that you're needing a kiddo break to neighbors or friends or coworkers. Someone can watch a busy toddler for a few hours so you can get some sleep.

Helfreclb · 26-30, F

@StraightLacedLADY I will try iv been looking for therapists . Thank you very much