Overstimulated mom

I walked almost everywhere today, I got some bad news about having psoriasis on my scalp and I lost hair. I wanted to cry but I know it’s because iv been more stressed and financially unstable . Plus iv been having health issues like a wart on my heel that’s making it hard to walk.. I can’t even afford the medicine to keep up with my health because my insurance doesn’t cover shit.. My son doesn’t stay still and is always touching and putting everything in his mouth and it’s all too much to give him attention and pay attention to my health while being so exhausted ,not having a break or any help . Then having to maintain a safe clean environment . I been depressed eating junk food and now I have to go full vegan to help with my breakouts or I will kill over. I’m so scared because I lack so much I don’t have anything but luckily taxes will be coming soon godwilligly while I’m in school. I just pray god watches over me and May any I’llnesses leave my body because I can’t afford to die or have anyone watch my son and I don’t wanna live off ssi . I’m so depressed I don’t have time for myself to even take care of myself. I love my son but I wish I made better decisions. I’m in such a horrible predicament especially with inflation and having no help thinking his dad would help I’m so dumb I hate my brain I hate everything about me