Tell me about your party/drug days.

Okay um, once I had this homegirl I'd drink with often. She came over one day & we were both drinking early ASF. She handed me a whole pint of lean (prescription cough syrup) & pulled out another one for herself. I was shocked she just gave me that for free but she said she got it for free so I didn't ask questions 😂

Anyway we sat there drinking, rolling blunts, & sipping lean until another dude showed up & my dog barked at him. He was annoyed by my dog & said "god I hate that f*cking dog" which pissed me off because don't disrespect my dog like that especially in his own home 😠 so I told him to apologize & if he didn't I was bout to beat his ass & he just laughed so I beat his ass 🤷 THEN he apologized to my dog lol so I went back to chillin.

Half hour later & I'm walking on the porch to spark a blunt while I notice the cops are pulling up. I walked back inside & announced "hey cops are out front so I'm walking out the back if anyone wants to roll with me" they all laughed so I walked out the back door & I heard them go "oh shit he ain't playing" so my homegirl jumped up & followed me while everyone else went out front to handle the cops.

Next thing you know, homegirl is like "ay I know these people that live right here" so we knocked on the door to hide out for a bit. Dude answers it & it's a full blown trap house (shitty house who's only purpose is to sell & do drugs).
The dude running it was a huge mf & he started asking me where I'm from, who I know, shit like that to test me. Turns out we had the same last name, were from the same small as town, & have the same family members. Dude turned out to be a long lost cousin I'd never met before 😮 everyone was shocked because they thought we were about to have problems. So we went from complete strangers to laughing & hanging out like we were best friends.

Suddenly more drugs came out so I popped 3 muscle relaxers, crushed 3 more & snorted those. Then we snorted coke, meth, & smoked heroin on top of all that while we were still smoking blunts nonstop & drinking the whole time. That was my 1st time ever trying H & my 4th or 5th time trying meth. I woke up the next day not knowing how I even got back home & I spent the next 10 hours pukings my guts out feeling the sickest I've ever felt in my life. I hated the feeling so much & I hated myself for trying H, that was the last hard drug that I hadn't tried before & one of the worst things I can imagine... Even though they're all bad. I have close friends I watched get lost to that shit & have never made it out. & To top it all off, I did all that on my little sister's birthday, who is one of the most important people in my entire life... & I didn't even call her. When I told her what I did she slapped me then she cried for hitting me because she's never done that before.

& After that I never touched anything like that again. I've had a few times where I tried a pill again, or did coke for a night, but I'm done with all that. I don't think I did any of it out of addiction I think I did it because I hated myself & I wanted to die. I used to pray that one day I just wouldn't wake up. But it never happened no matter how many drugs I did all at once. I always woke up & had to keep going.

So I said screw it all & kept going 🙏