feel 'gutted' that i lost a potentially good friend on similar worlds

now don't get me wrong, i'm not obsessing over this woman in an unhealthy way...but i just miss interactions from her in my posts, she was an elder woman from the U.S, and she regularly answered my posts and gave good advice, constructive positive words, which i told her i appreciated in my replies to her....i could tell that she cared about me and what i had to say?

her username was; 4meandyou

and recently i discovered she has blocked me, for what reason i really don't know, i know due to my mental health i at times post controversial things and think i come across as self centered, self absorbed and selfish not considering others.....and for that i'm really sorry....but it's something ive always struggled with due to having a personality disorder.....so i'm not sure if some of my posts caused her to block me?

anyway, now i'm really sorry and gutted i've lost what could of been a good friend online?

and there's no way i can message her to explain myself, to tell her i was thankful for her friendly interest in me and that i'm sorry for any offence caused, because she's blocked me.

Beautifullyderanged · 41-45, F

I've just seen her most recent post, personally I think that if she couldn't be nice enough to tell you why she blocked you, the friendship you had with her was more one sided then you thought, especially considering the content of the post...