Starting to wonder if there's any point to SW for me anymore 🖤

I think I need to stick to checking in on the people I care for and less trying to interact like this an effective public forum. I've had so much fun over the years, and I know I get sad sometimes, but I don't feel like I really interact through posts anymore. All the quippy fun and support turned silent. I reply to a lot of posts and it's often not acknowledged at all, sometimes even obviously avoided, so I've stopped trying with a lot of people. I see a post and want to join in, but I know there's no point.

I feel like I'm talking to a wall.

I used to love popping on here with some sillies, but most the people that used to laugh with me avoid me now.

I know it's fine, this place changes, I've been around since EP. And it doesn't have to be the experience I want or used to have. I love some of you guys. While my life went through dozens of big changes, some of you were there. Losing my parents, traveling the country in a van, the cancer freak out, an abusive relationship... I've been through some shit all up in this place.

But for the passed few months, it feels as lonely here as it does irl and I wonder if it's time to stop trying to be part of the activity. Fade away into the background. Ultimately it's not about me, I see plenty of people enjoying themselves. I'm aware the algorithm doesn't help.

So maybe it's time to fade away a bit. Stop expecting this place to supplement my sillies and understand my time here is dwindling.

I'll always love you guys. I really would have a big party and invite (most) everyone from SW. Even the people who act like I don't exist anymore.

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LunadelobosIAMTHEDRAGON · F

I knew you in your former incarnation here; we were friends, Ms. S. Yes, we were on a first name basis in our PMs.
from Ms. L. 🤗🩵🧜‍♀🐚🌊🐳

Are you needing to withdraw into your safety cocoon to recharge and reassess and maybe really truly rest, as you did last time?
A kind of reflecting, that can only occur, when we are introspective and immersed in our 4eart and soul and the bond of our loved one(s) and for me, nature; things that take me INTO who I was born to be , who I am remembering I am.

ME: Re reading my fav books because they ground me and are a comfort = My/The missing mirrors.

I am fragile and osmotic and volatile. there are depths to me, things almost no one knows or has seen or FELT (no ones really felt me).

I am volcanic
I am oceanic

©LunadelobosIAMTHEDRAGON(with just a lick of pride to do that :))) 🤭😏😁😎🥳😂🙂‍↕🥂

W4en things are very VERY difficult, when we face it alone, every day is not only a stru99le it is a battle and some days a war: You know this, You live this.

I am more than overwhelmed in my life, in fact I don't write anymore
(I post nothing, I can't. I have nothing to give now) , I am as Bilbo Ba99ins says, spread too thin on toast, but I am not even that, it is beyond that.

So. Yes, from me it will be very limited but you are the one who I respond the most because I can relate to SO MUCH of your stories, your life skeins speak in a language I understand and it harkens me and reaffirms that I am not alone. And I can't express my gratitude sufficiently in words,

Your journey reminds me of how I used to be also: I was very active in EP and had my posse of CLOSE people and it was my favourite online place ; it will always hold that fuzzy warm memory sensorial feelin9 (a unique distinction). EP was just IT :D .