I've been crying for the past few days I'm emotionally exhausted not that any of you care

@PiecingBabyFaceTogether I spent my whole life afraid, afraid what would come next. I guess I just wasn't always strong I let a lot of things get to me. Like the time my ex broke up with me over my lunch break from work and I got out of his car and scraped my knee because I was so in shock then it finally hit me and I had a panic attack. I didn't think I was going to ever recover from that. Was it trauma holding me back? I don't know what part of that could cause me trauma. My parents argued a lot when I was growing up so I didn't always have anyone to talk to about it. I mean sure i could have talked to my brothers about it because they been through it before but where would I begin with that? I don't know. Another thing is I feel stuck sometimes like I'm not where I am in life. I cant drive. I'm so terrified but I blame it on a car accident I had when I was 12 years old. Not saying I broke any bones I didn't but when my brother had an asthma attack, that scared me so deeply. My neck was sore really sore afterwards. I just feel like I'm lost like really lost. I feel like I'll never be enough for anyone and I just want to say I'm sorry ... for all of it