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riseofthemachine · 41-45, M
Life is journey not a destination.
I have religious beliefs and the religious beliefs I follow are painful but the truth and your always letting go of something in life .
Break ups , deaths , friendships , jobs , having no jobs , solving relationships .
Letting go brings you happiness .
Then the truth comes cause when you let go you will know peace .
If your holding onto something in life it's another form of self sabotaging yourself and the more you hold on the more painful it gets .
See letting go .
There's 3 stages .
1. Letting go .
2. Feeling the fear .
3 Heal the hurt ( that's the painful one ) cause you be battling of holding onto the pain and letting go of the pain with the mind .
See pain can give you a security and an identity in life and without that when letting go you can let yourself wide open leaving you vulnerable.
Back in 2006 I thought my life was a load of crap . Everyone around me was in relationships. I was very shy or introverted . People around me that I was with seemed to have a connection with having conversations and I was less involved cause I wouldn't participate over being introverted. It was a feeling of loneliness I thought I was suffering from . I was sober a year and half back then . Still being introverted I was still very content back then cause I always felt like the black sheep where ever I went .
The friends I was with were good friends but it was me who felt that way not them .
They didn't even notice it cause I'd never said it to them .
What happened next ?
I ended up in a relationship for a few years .
I went to a lot of places around the world .
I seen my favourite football team play back in 2007 . The relationship I was in took me out of myself . I was still introverted tho but the relationship I was in I was satisfied with .
That finished in 2010 been with her for 4 years .
I was heading to Australia to live there . I got as far as Hong Kong . Only there for 5 days . I lost a lot of money over there .
The relationship ended 3 months after I came back , back in 2010 . Still sober through all of that . The most painful experience I experienced in all my life .
From 2010 up to 2024 a lot of stuff happened in between , no break from it what's so ever .
The moral of the story is . The person I was looking for was the person I was back in 2006 and I never realized it until I lost nearly everything including my life .
The person I wanted to be was back in 2006 the person I was and never knew until I went through so much suicidal pain cause these days .
I'm hyper out and never was before .
What I'm trying to say to you on the question you asked about the " truth " is you have it and you don't know you have it and until you loose it , loose your soul and trying to get that back is some work ( painful but well worth it ) .
Today I'm single . I'm nearly sober 20 years and you get through anything with help of a higher power cause without my higher power I'm nothing . I can't manage my own life cause if I start managing my own life there's always unnecessary pain that I bring onto myself.
As what I said about ' truth ".
LIFE A Journey not a destination"
Why is it not a destination?
You never get there until your 6 feet under .
That's the day you made it 😊😊😊.
That's my experience. I hope it was a benefit too you .
I have religious beliefs and the religious beliefs I follow are painful but the truth and your always letting go of something in life .
Break ups , deaths , friendships , jobs , having no jobs , solving relationships .
Letting go brings you happiness .
Then the truth comes cause when you let go you will know peace .
If your holding onto something in life it's another form of self sabotaging yourself and the more you hold on the more painful it gets .
See letting go .
There's 3 stages .
1. Letting go .
2. Feeling the fear .
3 Heal the hurt ( that's the painful one ) cause you be battling of holding onto the pain and letting go of the pain with the mind .
See pain can give you a security and an identity in life and without that when letting go you can let yourself wide open leaving you vulnerable.
Back in 2006 I thought my life was a load of crap . Everyone around me was in relationships. I was very shy or introverted . People around me that I was with seemed to have a connection with having conversations and I was less involved cause I wouldn't participate over being introverted. It was a feeling of loneliness I thought I was suffering from . I was sober a year and half back then . Still being introverted I was still very content back then cause I always felt like the black sheep where ever I went .
The friends I was with were good friends but it was me who felt that way not them .
They didn't even notice it cause I'd never said it to them .
What happened next ?
I ended up in a relationship for a few years .
I went to a lot of places around the world .
I seen my favourite football team play back in 2007 . The relationship I was in took me out of myself . I was still introverted tho but the relationship I was in I was satisfied with .
That finished in 2010 been with her for 4 years .
I was heading to Australia to live there . I got as far as Hong Kong . Only there for 5 days . I lost a lot of money over there .
The relationship ended 3 months after I came back , back in 2010 . Still sober through all of that . The most painful experience I experienced in all my life .
From 2010 up to 2024 a lot of stuff happened in between , no break from it what's so ever .
The moral of the story is . The person I was looking for was the person I was back in 2006 and I never realized it until I lost nearly everything including my life .
The person I wanted to be was back in 2006 the person I was and never knew until I went through so much suicidal pain cause these days .
I'm hyper out and never was before .
What I'm trying to say to you on the question you asked about the " truth " is you have it and you don't know you have it and until you loose it , loose your soul and trying to get that back is some work ( painful but well worth it ) .
Today I'm single . I'm nearly sober 20 years and you get through anything with help of a higher power cause without my higher power I'm nothing . I can't manage my own life cause if I start managing my own life there's always unnecessary pain that I bring onto myself.
As what I said about ' truth ".
LIFE A Journey not a destination"
Why is it not a destination?
You never get there until your 6 feet under .
That's the day you made it 😊😊😊.
That's my experience. I hope it was a benefit too you .