I found out my mother in law can really use my dad's life insurance whenever she pleases.

I'm so sorry for complaining but I need to rant and get stuff off my chest and kind, my mind is literally breaking from all the betrayal...my mother in law said she would help us to get everything fixed so I didn't have to use my dad's life insurance money so I can save for a house, she kept saying she would pay for everything and help us but I found out she is getting the money from my uncle and he has my dad's life insurance because he lied about alot of things and so my mother in law is using my dad's life insurance and pretending to help us to look like a amazing mother. Not even asking if we want the help she's giving us. She's just using the money I could've had a house with but it's too late. Too much is getting used. I can't stand this, I've gone to the hospital over and over again for extreme panic attacks... I really think I'm dying and I wish I could