Story about myself

I'm so sorry about all the negative posts about my panic disorder I've been posting. This one is a hard story too. Please bare with me. I need to vent, I will try not to make it long.
My dad was my best friend, he passed away in 2018 from leukemia. Even though my dad meant the world to me, he wouldn't let me go out that often, I wasn't even allowed to go to school sometimes and I was definitely not allowed to drive or get a job. His reasoning was because of my kidnapping when I was 16 years old. Which I understand that but it really messed me up, I don't have diploma, and I have never had a job and I'm almost 28. I'm about to be homeless again with my family. I'm very scared, I truly just want to move on. It's hard to work with my mental healthy but I do want to work! I want to be able to prove for my child. I will never blame my dad because what he did was understandable but I'm tired if being called lazy and that I did this to myself. I'm trying so hard to grow but I get no chances. I'm honestly terrified. My family doesn't want to help and say this is all my fault even though they truly don't know the whole story

Mamapolo2016 · F

Don't apologize for sharing your fears with us. Most of us do sometimes.

Are you seeing a therapist who may help with coping methods and maybe medications?

Courage is not about not being afraid. Courage is when you are afraid and do it anyway.

I'm not sure if reliving past events would be good or bad, but it doesn't matter - because yesterday is gone.

Your eyes are in the front of your head because that's the way you should be looking - forward. There's nothing changeable about what's behind you.

Hugs.

Jenny1234 · 51-55, F

Sounds like you know what you need to do. Hs diploma, post secondary school if you can, learn to drive. You might want to tell your family. Also get a mentor

novaguy2u · 70-79, M

You have a tough road to hoe, but you have been given some excellent advice here. There is nothing I could add that hasn't been said.