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LyricalOne · F
KayraJordyn · F
When I was a teen I called my lil baby roll my "comfort roll". That's back when I was proud of what I felt about myself tho. TMI? @LyricalOne
LyricalOne · F
@KayraJordyn You’re not proud of what you feel about yourself now?
KayraJordyn · F
Well, I felt I was being a lil too in depth, but lets go deeper! 😆 So I was a good looking kid as a teen, at my healthiest (since having a chronic illness) at 19. then I gained weight from a medication I had to take to be well. When I was finally free of the med, I lost a ton of weight. But that stuff stays with you, physically and mentally.
I'm a size 10 and I feel best at a 6/8, but it's been a decade since I was there. That was around when I started that med. I ballooned up to a 14 back then. I will now always have a stomach that lays beside my stomach when I sleep on my side, lol, no matter what I do to remedy it. My stomach and thighs will always have stretch marks, and they will look highlighted by pink and white because I am pale as a ghost.
I will also look at myself with more criticism than I'm due, because I am selfish and I want the best for me. I want to be perfect and balanced and a great example to poeple--oh, right. That's right. They're the ones teaching me every day.
So yeah, I will kind of have an internal struggle until I decide to get the crud over it.
I'm a size 10 and I feel best at a 6/8, but it's been a decade since I was there. That was around when I started that med. I ballooned up to a 14 back then. I will now always have a stomach that lays beside my stomach when I sleep on my side, lol, no matter what I do to remedy it. My stomach and thighs will always have stretch marks, and they will look highlighted by pink and white because I am pale as a ghost.
I will also look at myself with more criticism than I'm due, because I am selfish and I want the best for me. I want to be perfect and balanced and a great example to poeple--oh, right. That's right. They're the ones teaching me every day.
So yeah, I will kind of have an internal struggle until I decide to get the crud over it.