I hate my life. I'd happily live with my kidnapper even if I couldn't ever go out. I like older men anywaysI hate my life. I'd happily live with my kidnapper even if I couldn't ever go out.
Make an actual plan to better your lives. Lying to yourself by ignoring the risks, including death and assault, will not lead to what you're fantasising about. There is no peace in this path. It just looks easy to you so you will beautify it to yourself.
Take time to plan and take matters to your own hands, not to someone else's
Please don't go with anyone, you don't really know how someone would treat you until after you've been with them. You can't really know if it's any better. I'm sorry you hate your life but you really shouldn't do that. That's how people get killed.