Similar worlds reality check!

@SW-User do tell..

@Smileandwave He was the most loving "man" I had ever met in my life. But he was not real. The real him was a rotten to the core druggie. I still have no clue what he got out of fooling someone like me. He got no money or anything else. The only thing I can think of is that he just wanted to be loved. I would have gave him that anyway. I love everyone. It was a crazy experience. But one that I needed to have for many reasons. It was me that got the benefit out of the relationship. It still hurt like hell when I learned what he was.

@SW-User gotcha!! Sorry bout that. Im going to assume you arent alone in that my dear!

@Smileandwave He catfished many others the same way. And others have been catfished too. It is sad people can't be themselves. I feel like he used me to play his games. But in the end I was the one that benefited.

@SW-User how so? Ot was a good learning experience?

@Smileandwave Yes, very good learning experience. He loved me without condition. I never had that in my life before. There were always conditions on love with everyone in my life. But for those two years I "felt" like I was loved without condition. And that feeling changed me even though it was not real. The feeling I had was real. And I needed that to heal a part of me that needed healing. So he may have catfished and got his laugh but I was the one that got the healing.

@SW-User thats interesting but a very good way to see the situation. You are a positive person arent you? Positive people know how to find the jewel in ugly things. Very nice!!

@Smileandwave Yep, nothing will destroy my positive attitude. There is good in everything and it is a matter of finding that good.