what keeps you up at night

@Holla34: are you okay

No but it's easier just to say I am

whats wrong

Depression, anxiety, being bipolar, being in a family that makes you feel worse about it and then turns it around turning you into the bad guy saying your the problem and how no one else is to blame but that's just part of it.

@Holla34: ive suffered from depression to so i know how that feels.. its a downward spiral of emotions and hate.

It's a lot of things and being sad for no reason and having it be harder to explain why your sad when you don't even know why that's the hardest thing about it in my opinion

yeah its like theres this part of you that is constantly eating at you causing a void.

And no matter what you do you can't fill it and it starts to eat you away until you just don't feel anything anymore you just feel numb

yep.. and you just dont feel like doing nothing because everything just seems meaningless.

Exactly even the things that make you extremely happy

yep.. when i went into my dark depression i lost all enjoyment in everything. i still dont play video games anymore because of it.

I feel out of place in my family and I'll be at home and I'll sit there and wish I was at home when I am but I can't figure out why I wash I was at home

thats how i felt too. out of place and so much self hatred

Except at school because high schoolers are assholes and have no filters

yep.. i was bullied in hs too

The only people who truly understand are the ones going through or have gone through it