I just need to get this off my chest...

My entire life I'm struggling with my weight. I was a skinny child, I was in dance and gymnastics. But someone somewhere told me I was Fat! because I wasn't a size 0. Today was the first day of me starting a weight loss journey I had been working out for months but I just started a diet today. I meal preped for the first time. And the entire day I felt like I was starving!!! And it just brought me back to being 14 with an eating disorder. Starving myself for weeks because I felt ugly. Even tho I wasn't fat at all. And now here I am like 40 pounds over weight. Trying to do it the heathy way and feel more confident on my 21st birhday in 2 months. Yet here I am crying my eyes out because Today I felt like I was 14 again fighting those self hatred thoughts saying... you deserve to feel hungry because you did this to your body. I'm not obese. But I'm not fit. I just want to feel confident and beautiful and love my body and I just don't feel like I'm ever going to be good enough. Diets just f...... suck!

iMystery · M

The greatest downfall of our beautiful women; mothers, daughters, friends, sisters; is that they seek the approval of those who don't know them and even those who REALLY don't even give them a second thought! Next time some idiot says something negative to you, ask this question "Do I randomly ever cross your mind at any other time?"...chances are the answer is "No" so why need their approval?

I would say "how about you go say that to your mother!" then smile, hold my head up high and do a moonwalk away from that person...ok maybe not the moonwalk part, but yeah, you know what I mean lol.