I actually don't want to be alone but I guess you don't always get what you want.

You won't always be alone. You're so young yet. You'll go through that phase at various times in your life. Not you, but some people act as if it's a shame to feel alone. Sometimes it's not pleasant, yet it's still a phase of life. There's nothing wrong with it. One can use that time to their advantage instead of fighting it. Sometimes it's good to just relax during those times, reflect, make plans for self-improvement, read, tidy up that closet you've been putting off, or a pantry, throw unwanted clutter out, so when you come through that you'll feel proud you accomplished something. You can also take that hobby back up you've been putting off, or journal your thoughts. Those are relaxing. Watch funny videos on YouTube or try your hand at painting. That is fun and relaxing. It's important to make peace with our phases of life. After all, they are there for a reason.