Looks like all this stress is finally getting to me now

I have many responsibilities to bear raising my neice and nephew, college, my job and public speaking as well as helping those who need it and living with the memories of my past as well as dealing with depression,bipolar disorder and several heartbreaks , losses most to suicide and often being branded as an outcast

Geez man, you need a break

@MyNameIsHurl: I'm unable to take breaks I must work to survive I have to train myself.

You need to find some way to relax man.

@MyNameIsHurl: nothing relaxes me much these days not even the things I used to do. Have to always be alert and ready.

Well you won't be able to provide for or help anyone if you have a massive stroke, so you best figure out some way.

@MyNameIsHurl: I'll try my best though they may be slim

Seems pretty imperative. Meditation, wine and kava tea work for me. Not at the same time.

@MyNameIsHurl: I'll have to try them

Best of luck