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interesting... 😵

@Kawaii: 😅 It's not great, but it's how things are for me unfortunately.

@Conscience: it's good.

@Kawaii: I don't know, there's something very lonely about being everyone's best friend, but no ones lover.

@Conscience: really? I'm completely okay with no lover... but probably cause I'm 13...

@Kawaii: Well some people don't ever need or care for love! I wish I could be like them... I'd never be sad again if I was.

@Conscience: I want love... but I don't want a boyfriend to be exact. At least you have friends... I have no one.

@Kawaii: Yeah, I have friends alright. That's granted being me. I guess it's harder to appreciate the things that come easy and are always there in life. If you have an endless amount of something, it stops being special. So it feels like I have no one.

@Conscience: yeah IK... but I try to appreciate what I have most of the time.

@Kawaii: I do the same, but if everyone was perfect at being grateful and having appreciation, no one would ever be sad again.

@Conscience: not exactly true. People can be grateful with what they have and want more. I realize a long time ago that all humans are greedy.

@Kawaii: Then they aren't grateful enough if they want more. I've seen people with nothing who were happy because they had that level of gratitude.

@Conscience: I've never actually met someone like that... only seen a lot on the internet and stuff.

@Kawaii: I remember seeing this homeless man who had no lover, family, or friends and he barely got enough to eat. He was a nobody with nothing struggling to survive on the streets, but he said his greatest joy in life was simply getting to see the world. Seeing the sunrise or sunset. Listening to birds sing. Enjoying the warmth of sunshine in the park... These things made him happy. One of the happiest people I've ever seen.

@Conscience: in a video? or real life?

@Kawaii: Real life. I met him during my stay in a psych hospital. I was allowed to walk around the city with my therapist because of good behavior. During one of those walks we ran into him and had a long conversation about life.

@Conscience: if the world has more people like him I'm sure it's going to be a way better place.

@Kawaii: I guess it just goes to show you we make our own problems. If we were all as grateful as him, there wouldn't be any.

@Conscience: exactly, but too bad we are not...

@Kawaii: I try to remember that, it's my fault for being sad and I could make the choice to be happy if I was more grateful, it's just... I guess I'm still working on that. I seem to find enough happiness in purpose though. Having goals in life. I think that's the best way for people who aren't grateful enough to be happy. Working towards what they want in life.

@Conscience: and I will try to remember that too.