Have you ever cried on the job?
I ended up crying yesterday because I just couldn't take it anymore. It was a combination of things that sent me into the deep end. When you have crap coming at you out of every angle there is no place to escape it unless you can climb the mountain of crap and pray you don't sink into it on the ascent. I have my mother's failing health to contend with. My own health is rather questionable at the moment with all my mystery bruises and fatigue. I have a cat dying from nasal cancer. He will no longer eat even his treats or favorite food. He used to go crazy whenever I had cheese but he won't even eat it today. I have the fact that I have to put him down soon over the top of me and I couldn't handle a single comment from him. Nobody else gets singled out like me and I had enough. Thankfully I wasn't working on anyone at the time this happened. I ended up taking my gloves up whipping them into the trash can and made a beeline to the restroom. I cried in the stall for a few minutes trying to plot my next move as to what I wanted to do. I stayed in there for awhile trying to get the tears to stop but they weren't stopping. I came out looking disheveled trying not to cry and finished my day up. I had a few others approach me asking if I was alright and one offered to talk to the one at fault. The one at fault tried to apologize but I walked right past him and looked right past him. In time I may accept an apology or want to talk but I had no desire to look at or speak to him then. Perhaps I acted like a jerk and I feel bad about how I handled that. I'm not a rude person by nature but I felt I couldn't be kind in that moment.
Today not a peep from him. I should not have to bring up my personal business and struggles in order for someone to be nice to me in a place of work. Everyone should assume every single person in the place has something going on outside of here and to be respectful of one another. This may be someone's only place of escape from issues plaguing them. In that moment I felt it was best to remove myself from the situation before I said or did something I would regret. I am not a violent person but if I ever wanted to punch someone it would have been him. I hope he has at least learned a lesson that words and how you treat someone speaks more of you than of who you are putting down. I hope he thinks before he speaks and how his ways can make another person feel. If the roles were reversed would he feel the same as I did?
Today not a peep from him. I should not have to bring up my personal business and struggles in order for someone to be nice to me in a place of work. Everyone should assume every single person in the place has something going on outside of here and to be respectful of one another. This may be someone's only place of escape from issues plaguing them. In that moment I felt it was best to remove myself from the situation before I said or did something I would regret. I am not a violent person but if I ever wanted to punch someone it would have been him. I hope he has at least learned a lesson that words and how you treat someone speaks more of you than of who you are putting down. I hope he thinks before he speaks and how his ways can make another person feel. If the roles were reversed would he feel the same as I did?
56-60, M
