I know someone who uswd to be like you, today she still is trying to deal with the death of 2 of her closest friends from that time, one that died in a car accident while my friend was passenger, the other who died from an overdose in her arms, shes trying to deal still today with being raped by her guy friends while intoxicated and loosing her family for it... only that still talks to her is her father... today at 40yrs she is studying to be a nurse and regrets not doing it earlier.. she had everything to make it good, she had very good grades, first of her class, she was into sports even made the journal witb her team and featured as an high performance athlete, but then chose the wrong kind of life.. and she's having nightmares most night still about that time and what it cost her to be wild and free.
Just saying