I lost my baby girl a few years ago in December so I lost it and every where I went I would shut down from people talking to me but slowly the healing had begun I will never forget but I know I will see her again someday and my ex too
I missed my father! He would been cooking for us in this Christmas times! Although I lost him when I was teenager, I still cry even im already a mother.
I tick all those boxes, plus one more as I'm actually sick and even if I'd wanted to socialise, etc. I can't. it's not covid (got tested a week ago). Bacterial respiratory infection. it's going away. But the first time in my whole life I'm actually ill on Christmas day and it isn't caused be personal excessiveness (like too much partying the night before, etc.).
I have cold beer and plenty of home made frozen meals to pick from for my dinner.
My mum who passed away Dec 23 last year used to make legendary Xmas baked dinners on Xmas day when she was still with all her faculties (last 10 years that wasn't the case). I have never made a baked dinner and despite it being summer here in Australia I want to try it one day.
thank you, I am all of the above, alone, sad, missing my best friend, feeling hurt that I am estranged from family, but on the other hand, that's what zoloft, booze, and weed, and other vices is for.
I celebrate in my own way today, I guess. I got food in my belly, and a warm bed to sleep in tonight, which is a lot better than what some people would have it tonight, so.. yeah.
Have been alone the last 6 Christmases, but to be fair I enjoy it. After leaving a marriage to a seriously controlling ex the novelty of being able to do what I want (from choosing how much I eat and drink to how long I speak to my family on the phone to, and I kid you not, the position I leave my knife and fork on my plate after eating) has not worn off yet and I am looking forward to another Xmas of doing exactly what I bloody well want. Bliss.