My heart is with you Chantou.
Dealing with cancer myself, it can be unnerving.
I see you have asked for prayers, so you are a believer.
That's very cool. I try reminding myself to trust in God,
He knows what's going on, and is in control. I personally find real comfort in that knowledge, and able to more calmly face challenges.
I look forward to hearing about successful surgery.
God bless you!