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@swandfriends Ok. When I received your reply, it was right before I had to go to bed in order to get up to go to work on Tuesday. When I saw your edited reply, I was getting ready to go to work. And now? I'm finally home from work and can give your very interesting reply the time, attention and thought that it deserves. First off, I truly want to thank you for the effort you have made on my behalf. It truly is appreciated. So - to answer your most recent comment - YES. It makes a LOT of sense and definitely DOES resonate with my life. Ok. A love interest is not a theme in my life at this time. However, there is a neverending yearning deep in my heart, behind all the layers of self protection and cynicism to be loved in a certain kind of nurturing way and to return that love. But I guess I've given up hope. I'm not seeing anyone right now and have been alone for a very, very long time. Financially, I'm presently living "down to the wire". The rent and bills are paid, I have food, but since last May, It's been a struggle. And now - onto the most interesting part of all - yes, I do feel I'm being pulled in 2 different directions. Since last April, I've been feeling burnt out on the 40 hours per week workaday grind. Unfortunately, and most of all in my current financial situation in particular, I need to keep earning to remain housed and fed. I've been wanting to take time to do serious, groundbreaking "take it to a new level" development on my artwork. But I have little free time and feel tired all the time and feel like I'm being slowly worn down. Very much wanting and needing some sort of change, but not knowing what or how and feeling fatigued almost all the time. I've had some brief periods off from working over this past summer to attempt some development on my artwork, but it hasn't been enough. This feels like a strange "do or die" time regarding my artwork. I am far from young, I'm 3 years away from turning 60. I don't drink alcohol or do any drugs. My only vice is smoking cigarettes. I was in a serious relationship with a female Taurus, but that was back in the 1980s - 1990s. The cards indicating a halfway mark is also interesting - about two days before my original reply to your post, I had a thought about possibly being at some sort of halfway mark regarding where my life is now and what it has been in recent months. Not a halfway mark regarding the number of years my life will last - I feel I'm already very much past the halfway mark on that - but something nebulous regarding the very major current issues of work for survival vs. artwork. Regarding finances, I might be looking for a different job soon - the job I'm currently at might be slowing down over the winter months. "Receiving some source of money" sounds very interesting - I've been wanting over the last few months, some sort of "financial windfall" where I could take off working for 3 to 6 months to go "full steam ahead" in terms of time to really work on and develop my artwork and make some pieces to constitute a body of work. My living expenses are not all that high, are not expensive. Well, I realize I've written quite a long reply here. But I wanted to address some very interesting things you said regarding the reading you did for me, and again, I wish to thank you most sincerely for your efforts on my behalf. Blessings, Wellness, and WellBeing to you.

@theAlchemist Thank you, and you are very welcome. I'm kind of an all around artist as well. What kind of artwork you do?

@swandfriends 3D cyber sculptures and sculptures which are made with polymer clay and painted with acrylics. I am far from 'technically gifted" or even skilled, which is why development times take so long.