Why am I so afraid to start?

@uncalled4 I wish it was just that. I've been subjected to so much pain, I've been ignored for 3 years practically. By lecturers and peers. Been sat in too a where I've felt physically threatened but by the way someone was looking at me. I've been blocked at door ways. Shouted at in the face. Told not to leave a space. Had my work torn down. My chair removed. My work space also removed ie my table and chairs.
I was made to feel very unwelcome even before I started. Then gaslit and told to seek therapy by my course leaders.

@Mellowgirl That sounds terrible, as well as illegal. Have you gone above any heads and complained?

@uncalled4 I went to the university Dean. But I basically was told to move course, so now I'm at another branch. I made no connections and was subjected to the same. In fact here university lecturers started moving important things so I couldn't continue to keep up with my work. Since the #blm protests they've stopped doing this and in able to see all content of the course.

@Mellowgirl I had issues with 2 professors but nothing was done about it. Didn't affect my grades, so I didn't pursue it.

@uncalled4 they just want me gone. My course leader set up weekly meetings but she thinks she's being smart. She pretended to be showing me content over teams moving her mouse talking about what she could see whilst still on the last screen.
She doesn't have to meet with me and she doesn't have to pretend to help the bottom line is I'm only meeting with her because she suggested it. Now I'm not bothering