Why do we love the people we hate?

I dislike the homosexuals and liberals in my country and family and those who think multiculturalism actually is saving diversity while it's doing the opposite.
I am a biology scholar but still I have a feeling that I should leave education I fight for my country and save my people through politics from becoming retarded like Americans because I do have money. The same people who despise me for calling them faggots I wanna work for their future. Is this love or hatred?
Horrible case with me. I am "Nazi by your definition" but am also against Christianity and I am a logical pantheist.