why am I experiencing an overwhelming rush of suicidal thoughts?

Talk to someone. Don’t let the thoughts take over.

What's going on ? Is it pressure from groups of friends .

Panic attack. Call a friend or the hotline. You can even call the ER. I have been in your shoes and it's a horrible place to be.

Stress anxity..

No more coffee for you

Low dopamine levels? I'm not sure, but be sure to get help