I wrote a paragraph on EP about the day my X left about the state of shock I was left in... I thought writing it out would make me feel better but it was much longer after that before I finally was able to deal with it and talk about it.
@lilangel I'll try to remember, so this will be paraphrasing what I wrote then...
"Calling out your name and it the noise was met with the echoing of my own voice off the bare painted walls... the one you hear when a room is empty and soulless until you give it one. I panic and call out again, and again to silence.... I go to the closet and your duffel is gone... your leather biker jacket is gone and everything that made you, you is no longer here. I run for the new cell phone I bought for us and stab you number into the keypad.. it goes directly to voicemail immediately and I sit on the edge of the bed. I've been kicked in the stomach and the pain is only now reaching my brain. You're a coward, and this is the first day of leaning to hate you...."