Which would be the hardest to give up ?

Really?

Yes. I can't do anything without being at least a little drunk. It's bad really...

@GermanAf: it's certainly sad.

@GermanAf: it should be something you maybe look at for your age hunni..it would be a shame to let it take hold of you..

Too late I think. I dunno. I tried to stop, but I basically can't go outside without getting a panic attack when I'm not at least semi-drunk or something.

@GermanAf: oh ok..Well maybe it's time to find an alternative my sweet.

I could take a lot of pills I can't afford. But that is just the same shit... I don't even notice being drunk anymore actually. I just need a little liquid confidence to get through the day.

@GermanAf: do you drive?

Sometimes. It's still in the legal area though.