Are you truly happy?

Have you always been indifferent?

Mostly. Long periods of indifference punctuated by seemingly random roller coasters of emotion.

Would you say those emotional roller coasters reinforce that indifference?

In what way?

Well, I was guessing that perhaps both positive and negative experiences and emotions resulting from those experiences led you to stay indifferent. That is, assuming the positives and negatives essentially cancel each other out.

The negatives far outweigh the positives. Deciding not to feel anything for as long as I can could be heavily influenced by that, sure.

I was hoping that wouldn't be the case, but not surprised that it is. /:

It's alright. It's a better coping mechanism than any I've had previously. I'm getting there.

As long as you know you're moving in the right direction.