Today, i hit the most lowest in my life.

I made my classmates, and both my instructors cry, my program advisor didnt want me to quit. I know if I kept continuing I probably would've killed myself cause I'm already going down that road anyways. when I spoke to the college advisor about withdrawing he was concerned so now he referred me to the school counselor/therapist. Not gonna lie, I kinda want to be better and literally want a better life. I can not let my suicidal tendencies keep coming to me, I want to stop self harming. I just want to he happy and I'm glad I made the first step, now its its only time for me to apply myself and work on myself.