@Tastyfrzz: thank you I appreciate that just doing it on your own makes you feel stupid and that you're not going to get anywhere because others won't follow what they truly believe in fear that they would (which they are right) be outcastes for. I have no issue with that but it does make life much harder although extraordinary none the less lol

Start small and build from there.

Thank you! Your supportive words have given me the inspiration I needed :)

Well it seems I either suck and follow the rest and go against myself or not and continue to have life of struggles