I just realized that I have been lying to myself for so long i started to believe it

As much as I don't want to admit it I do need love in my life I do need to find a guy who's gonna love me for me and not use me I have bad taste in men I always get screwed over in the end how am I supposed to find a guy who has no intention of using me or just sleeping with me you know I wonder if my mother went through something like this with my father