God gave up on me so I gave up on god.

You need to make this life whatever you can for you. No one and no god is ever going to help you. Fuck god and fuck everyone. Live for YOU!

What happened to I will never leave you or for sake you if God gave up on you that makes him a liar I don’t think he’s a liar

If you believe this, so be. If you truly believe it, prove him wrong, and be happy on your own conditions

You don't want you to be happy, God or no God, either way that has nothing to do with it.

I'm sorry I know the feeling well.