Did your S/O commit suicide?

No. But I've lost a lot of family and friends. Especially this year. Four people in my family in 3 months. It doesn't go away. Suicide has to be an incredibly painful way to lose someone. My family member had a bad heart and drank himself to death a few years ago. His last words were "watch this". That was enough to devastate our family. God help those who have to grapple with friends or family who chose to die by their own hands.