I let him screw me sometimes so he thinks Im in love with him.

@SumKindaMunster not proud actually.

@Ratatouillesque No? Then why post it on the internet for all to see?

@SumKindaMunster Oh you want me to announce it to my friends and family?

@Ratatouillesque Tell whomever you wish. My point was that, if you indeed feel shame for your actions, why are you posting it on the internet for everyone to read?

@SumKindaMunster Because I feel like im losing my mind if I dont talk about it to someone.

@Ratatouillesque Ok. So is this helping? Are you now going to make a change so you don't feel this way?

@SumKindaMunster I kind of let the masochist side of me take over. So no.

@Ratatouillesque So in other words, your guilt is forcing you to do this so you are properly shamed and you feel better about yourself?

@SumKindaMunster It doesnt make me feel better, I just do it because I want to punish any side of me that still believes in love.

@Ratatouillesque Well, you didn't ask, but my advice is to be honest with this person. He may not care. I think you do like this person but perhaps are concerned what others might think if you were to reveal that you are "catching feelings" as it were.

I know this with certainty. If you want to get past this you need to do something different. Either stop fucking the guy and save your affections for someone you do have feelings for, or come clean with him so you have piece of mind.

Good luck.

@SumKindaMunster Mhm. So easy to throw out some words of whats the just thing to do.

@Ratatouillesque Well at least you can't say you were never told.🙂

@SumKindaMunster thanks ;)