I can't think of anything more pathetic than bleeding your heart out on a website where people are looking for nudes and posting stupid memes but my

i don't think it's pathetic, seems incredibly human to me. you seem like you're searching for something, but unsure of where exactly it will be found so you're putting your hands out a bit like an "emotional octupus" because just maybe something will come along that shines a light or makes things make more sense, or gives yout he spark you seem to really need. hoping something will 'stick' to one of the tentacles and you'll have something like a place to even think about starting. i could be dead wrong though. not like i know you. just an observation.