Are you in love and loved in return ?

@DancingStarGoddess I hope someday you'll experience it .. Cos it's amazing

@Starz93 ibelieve it, i hear them when they say it and such all that, and some of their actions, just not able to receive it properly if that makes sense. idk how to process it. hopefully someday iwill. would be nice.

@DancingStarGoddess I get what u mean.. it's not easy and it comes by surprise

@Starz93 it might, so far as i'm told it's a disorder. i don't bond with people in that way. not relatives either. hoping to get some "spark" some day

@DancingStarGoddess you just need the spark and it will come.. I kinda relate with you! Maybe you've been through something in life that made you this way.. or it's just your personality.. but it doesn't mean there's no hope.. there is.. just needs patience:)

@Starz93 not sure, it's been this way since birth. i'm told it stems from inability to bond as a baby. i don't love or like or feel connection to anyone i share relationwith save for one of them. and they're dead. all the rest are just "people" to me. more than just a personality trait or being afraid. nor a thing so easily explained. it's just not there. i get why you're saying what you're saying, because it's normal for humans to be able to bond or feel these things, i CAN love and like others, i just can't feel anything in return at all. so i don't stay around anyone long, i feel no sense of obligation or connection at all.

@DancingStarGoddess oh .. i now understand what you mean! Thank you for explaining .. I mean, to be honest there is a blessing in that in itself cos you know why ? When we connect with someone on a deep level.. every small mistake they do even if not on purpose just hurts us. The pain is just unreal! And sometimes that strong love bond gets lost and loses its spark after a while.. then you just sit there wondering why it happened or why it's falling apart.. Hmm bless you still.. you're amazing just the way you are ! :) and no I'm not singing Bruno mars song. Lool

@Starz93 lol thank you kindly, and yes i understand, i think about hurt and love in a more logical than emotional way i guess. if i say i love somebody, my mind then says " i should never hurt this person, this is now my person, hurting them is not indicative of that love" if they then say mean things to me, even if it's just because they're angry, it goes against that logic, and my mind says " ok... you're trying to harm me, you need to be away from me." seems cold but, seems wrong to do horrible things to somsone i have professed to love, and sadly, most people do just that very thing.

@DancingStarGoddess you see! That's beautiful the way you think.. I swear I can't tell you the amount of times people who promised they won't hurt me .. but they did! It's like it's so easily done and yet they expect forgiveness.. and sometimes I forgave cos the love I had for them was stronger.. until I said no more cos why am I being so careful not to hurt this person but they hurt me everytime! I wish the world thought like you. Bless you .

@Starz93 yes exactly! you're doing everything not to hurt them because you care for them, and it makes you ask, why aren't i precious to them like this?" seems so wrong. so unbalanced. and thank you kindly!

@DancingStarGoddess exactly! You're welcome 💕