its tough and its horrible. relationships do not work that way. i know we are often told not to give up on our relationships, work on them etc.But i think no matter how much you work , if they are not your kind of people, they will not be able to connect with you or understand you.In life quantity of people dont matter , quality of people matter.Be with people who allow you to be you and let your spirit free. Be with people who make you feel comfortable and are welcoming. the situation you are talking is toxic, u want them but u dont want them. Accept that no matter how much we try we are not able to connect to some people because we are not meant to.And may be you feeling the vibes of this non connection.At the end..i would like to end with quote "Go where u are celebrated not tolerated".hope you will be fine soon.
